This quote came to my email the other day. I immediately knew I had to save it, because right now, it's the story of my life.
None of us can predict what our lives will be like from one day to the next. I never dreamed that at this point in my life I would be parenting an 8 year old and a 12 year old. I did not anticipate that we would no longer be able to leave for the weekend on a whim or enjoy quiet, leisurely evenings on the patio, just the two of us.
My life is not what I thought it would be.
My emotions flip-flop inside me as I fight against fear, frustration, and helplessness. But even as these feelings bump up against each other, hope and joy push their way through. I remember that because we have these 2 young girls, we are lucky enough to experience many things a second time around...
Baking with 2 helpers and scream/laugh when Miss Destiny turned the mixer on too high and flour erupted out of the bowl...
Watching this little lady check out books that she's chosen herself and then curling up in my lap to read while we waited for big sister to finish getting her books...
Beginning our search for the best ice cream of 2017 with Annie and Lucas...
Heading to the zoo for an impromptu visit and seeing everything from their point of view...
Ending the evening with two young ones snuggled next to me knowing that another day has gone by and they've healed just a little bit more.
We don't know what the next day will bring and this life sure isn't what I expected it to be, but when I let go of what "should have been" and focus on all the goodness we are blessed to have, I have hope that this new way of life is going to work out for all of us.
